im sorry baby,
i didnt mean what i said.
i know it was meant for my own good.
i was too harsh on you.
hope you can forgive me okay,sorry to you.
just settled 2nd granduncle's funeral.
still couldnt get over it completely.
well,i know human being will be dead one fine day.
but,i just don't have the courage to face it.
grandpa is still kept in the dark.
and all are very guilty that we had kept him in the dark.
because he could actually pay his last respect to him.
but we choose not to let him know.
due to some custom beliefs.
but i did 'test water'
i ask grandpa whether he will forgive ppl who lied to him.
he said that he will.
and i also told him that 2nd granduncle not very well now.
and he knows,
ppl get sick,ppl gets old,and finally ppl get to die.
i stayed over at his funeral for the last night.
and yeap,
strange things happen.
at around 3.50am,
'knock knock knock'
it was loud enough for me and my cousin,nicholas to heard it,
no doubt we are quite a distance from the coffin.
my two aunties were sticking flowers on the coffin and they just rushed out.
and one of them cried,
well,we have to check it out right,
and so we went in and check.
and then we were burning joss paper,
and then kamo,say she hear footsteps.
so changed place with my other cousins,
and my hair just stand!
hmmmmmm..
somethings are hard to explain!
went to the temple and waiting for the cremenation.
its real cruel to burn human being,no doubt its a dead body.
the fire just appear in front of our eyes when the door was half shut.
sigh.
And baby,
thanks for your understandings for the past few days,
as i need to help out on the funeral,
my cousins and aunties needed me,
if not for your understandings,
i would be in a confused state,
no doubt the funeral,
we still meet each other every single day.
there's never a day that we didnt see each other.
even ytd,
i opened my eyes in my sleep.
for that very ten secs.
baby's all mine,
im all's baby.
we been thru alot,
and recently some silly issues,
but is all because we could stay together as one,
thats why problem became not a problem in us.
in my heart,there's only you,my love.
time has proven quite alot for the both of us,
no blessings from ppl? never mind.
only curse and swear from ppl? never mind.
because the future only matters the two of us only.
aussie,our destination.
iloveyou baby.
we will be facing the future together,
we will be working hard enough to build the future,
we will be holding each other to every corner of the world.
that is wad we have promised each other and it will come true.
