two halves to be complete :D
went back bps this morning.
the feeling of home, never fails to be felt.
first teacher would be Mr peterson, and then followed by Mr sim and the rest.
chatted with Mr sim, and tears flooded my eyes again.
just like last year also.
i'll never give up.
went back together with yong xiang, muqing, weeteck and celine.
brought brownies last night for our lovely teachers :D
spend around 50 dollars in total.
i miss school life.
i've realised that babylove quite sensitive these days, i got to be more careful with my words.
& things are still pretty good between us,
babylove texted me just now,
0.0, but the sentosa trip make my heart beat faster.
hahaha. i never regret knowing you,
never regret having this relationship,
you are the only person i need in my world.
muacks.
the sentosa trip is the first outing after we contact each other back,
together with lionel, eugene and lydia yiyi.
hmmm, it's really a memorable outing. :D
next tuesday babylove will pass out from tekong :D
hahaha. and that means he will have more time with me.
and i have stop tutoring the boys liao, as i need time to study.
have been talking to my close friend, Y.
i think i should heed Y's advice.
no thou, it would be hard to be caried out, would be hard to make a decision.
but i guess, that shouldn't goes on and on.
babylove, i miss you, can you hear me saying?
i miss you so much,
days seems to pass super slowly without you,
and when you book out,
days are passed so fast, 2 days just pass and you have to book in again.
alright, i have to turn in now, quite tired already.
babylove, i miss you, never, never be separated again.
reached home and bathe after 12 hours of work!
my legs super aching. my god.
today is babylove's book in day again.
well, i have to work again, babylove insists to send me to work from last night till this morning.
and last night at soccer court, the atmosphere super weird. lol.
babylove knows why, and, i actually rise my voice at babylove, i'm sorry.
both of us, is because we were sensitive,
that's why i actually rise my voice, but you say, might be because you're sensitive last night.
hmmmm, whatever it is, i love you babylove.
i'll be fine, i'll be strong.
you've charged me alot liao.
i will cherish you, you know that.
alright, tomorrow going back bps.
i miss secondary school life.
okay, i gonna sleep now, my eyes closing!
Now is 1442hrs.. Babyy is working, i miss her so badly.
Booking in at 1725hrs.
Sigh.. Babyy you need take care yourself ook?
Babyy said she depend me alot.. haa.
But i guess we do depend on each other.
We always have to gone thru lotss of tears to get happines.
We only have 2days every week.. and babyy want more time with me
So guilty that i cant spare more time for her.
But luckily she quite understanding.
We will never quarrel with small issues like tat.
Babyy, thanks for being part of my life.
You never fail to brighten my days.
Because of you, i smile.
Be strong ok? stay happy everyday.
Iloveyou4ever babyy!
YOYO qiulong here..
Now is 10.45am.. at babyy's house.
Cooked breakfast for her.. then later moving to my house.
Play abit of dota.. and now we are setting off.
Later going for street soccer and maybe L4D.
Well, program all ready for me later hahaa.
Had a movie last night. FD4 3D
Not bad, is a nice show.
Sunday book in again...sigh babyy gonna be alone again.
I'm sorry babyy ok?
hmmm.. lots of stuff happened to my babyy..
Haizz..same old problem.
I hope people around her can dun bully ok?
Okay my babyy today abit violence..
Keep hit my head.
Maybe my sitting height just nice for her to whack.
Alright, moving out of her house le..
Lastly, babyy i love you forever ok?
I promise.
guess what? My babylove is out tonight !
babylove actually wanted to come to my working place to wait for me.
but, his CSM took a long time to say finish what he need to says,
so we meet at city hall.
and yes, we didn't talk, hahaha, strange yea?
we just keep on smiling and smiling to each other,
text each other when he is just standing infront of me.
hahaha, when we reached jurong, then we start to disturb each other liao.
hahaha, thanks to his buddy, that's why he could book out tonight!
hahaha, babylove told me how tough his trainings were,
especially the outfield,
he even wanted to fall out already, but he endure, till they dismiss them in the outfield.
he say he act smart lor, go volunteer, hahaha!
well well well, the moment i see babylove, i yawned.
finally i felt tired, finally i felt like.... i wanna have a good sleep.
i dunno why, i haven been eating well,
i haven been sleeping early,
brother said that no food intake, then no energy.
but for my case, no food intake, i could have my energy till 3am.
hahaha!
alrught, i got to go and bathe now and sleep early tonight,
will be spending my weekends with babylove,
except sunday, i'm working again,
but tml will make it up :D :D :D
i love you babylove!
finally less than 24 hours i can hear my babylove's voice.
have been watching dramas till the wee hours,
didn't have proper meals but i still have energy.
thanks to brother and xueming's concern, afraid that i don't have enough energy.
but but but, i can stay up to 3am every night.
i'm sick, having bad flu. i dunno why also.
tomorrow will be working.
babylove, i have learnt something again,
i have learn how to see people clearly.
who are the people who use their true self to treat another person.
sorry, but i have to say again,
no one understand why we have this relationship,
came across a blog, theirs relationship also the same.
sighs, god already test us through alot alot of things.
they claimed to have receive their punishment,
and yes, me and babylove received ours too.
i can say:we are too young to known each otherboth of us dun know what is love.
many happening thing happen,there is time both of us made mistake.
we get our punishment,After year goes by,he live his life,i live my life,how come we will be together again,we doesn't have common friend,
one live in the north and the other live in the west,
maybe when u listen our story,u will call me stupid,
i believe people will made mistake must forgive and forgave,
it take me years to heal the pain and hurtis hard to believe.we can be together again
But,This relationship is fated,why i can say that cos"fate brought us back"
that's what i saw in the blog.
very amazing, it's not just by saying to any other people,
because they will find it stupid for us to say all that we wanted to say.
so, just keep it between the two of the parties,
that's why i choose to let people to curse and swear,
that's why i choose to let that kind friend of mine to keep comparing.
because, there's no use to compare,
there's no use to explain why we could eventually end up together again.
alright, all these sounds rubbish to you all?
guess, i miss babylove too much already,
faster babylove, i wanna hear you!
alright, got to sleep now,
because i don't want to miss babylove's call if he calls in the morning.
and what's more, i have to work!
3 am soon, and i am not asleep yet,
these two days, i have been like this, and for these three days,
i only ate 1/2 a bowl of rice for lunch, maggi mee at wee hours,
second day ate 1/4 plate of rice, maggi mee at wee hours again.
my diet is unhealthy yes i know.
i dunno why, and now during this hour i hasn't sleep yet.
:( :( :(
my hand can't stop shaking now.
sister pack food back from her school, needed my mum's help.
so my mum went to the mrt station to wait for her.
after my mum left not long ago, my grandpa wanted to have lunch,
it wasn't the first time that i transfer him, so i thought shouldn't be a problem.
grandma didn't place the wheelchair properly, and it was my fault,
i should have placed it myself instead.
and so upon transferring, 1st the position wasn't right, and i don't have so much of that strength.
so ended up, i transferred him to the floor.
i am like, oh shit !
grandma got shock and had tummy ache, as for me, my hand shakes!
grandma approach my neightbour's maid to come and help,
while i support grandpa at the back to prevent him slipping down,
if not he will end up lying on the floor and that will be more difficult!
and so help came, we carry him back to the bed.
sighs. i am such a failure.
i got the sudden urge to pick up my phone and call anyone, just anyone,
but i told myself, remind myself what did babylove says to me,
and thus, i only msn with teng teng.
alright, have to go calm my nerves now.
i need you babylove. :(
second day of his outfield.
as usual, woke up around 6.30am again, move to my bed and sleep,
let my mummy take over my grandpa in the morning,
i fall into deep deep sleep, and i had a nice dream :)
when i'm awake, i look at my phone,
nothing.
i can say like what julianna said before, i think my handphone spoilt.
by right, every morning, i never fail to receive babylove's msg,
but, i know, not that he doesn't want to message me, it's the rules®ulations of SAF.
welcome to NS, brother will say to me if i were to tell him this.
hahaha.
i didn't ever wonder why babylove didn't text me. because, he will text me whenever he can.
i know he is being strong inside, facing everything himself,
and as for me, i will be fine :D
won't be giving tuition nor going babylove's place today,
cause teng teng has other programmes,
postponed to tomorrow,
guess will stay home whole day, but i must go out for a walk,
i am not someone who can stay home whole day.
hahaha.
i miss babylove badly, how???
oh my god, i need his words now.
first day without babylove's message whole day :(
i miss the morning messages, afternoon calls, night calls and goodnight messages.
i felt so empty without his messges on my phone. the last one was this morning.
i am worried about babylove, hmmm, i miss you,
guess if you were to call me, i'll cry again.
well, i can understand why i dun receive his messages, because, he is having outfield now.
babylove prepared his special messages all the way from today's till thursday :D
hees :D isn't him sweet? hahaha.
yesterday night we were on the phone,
and we realise we have nothing much to say to each other other than those 3 syllabus words.
and thus, babylove asked to hang up,
guess he gonna hide his emotions again.
and after hanging up, i receive his text,
babylove send this to me,
baby, i realise we have nothing to say on the phone.
doesn't mean that our love fade ok?
is just that we know we can be happily together even we don't talk.
i just need you by my side.
that was how i felt everytime when he booked out,
we don't talk much for the first half of the journey,
he knows it all without me saying anything.
and when babylove is out, again, i don't have to tell me,
it seems that all my happenings are written on my face for him.
whole day phone very silence,
only receive message from anthea, julianna and teng teng.
i miss babylove,
i will outstand this feelings okay?
but it's super difficult okay, i'm not that strong as other girls yet.
my maid went back and till now hasn't call us yet.
she's playing mind game with us.
sighs! what for.
have been spending the day taking care of my grandpa.
transferring him and sponging him up is not easy at all.
hmmmm, tml i will be giving tuition and then to babylove's house for maths revision.
at this wee hours i hasn't sleep yet,
i dunno why, today everything seems different,
my sleeping time, my mood, my appetite.
guess it's because i didn't have babylove's message and his voice.
alright, today i only had a half bowl of rice.
didn't got hungry at all today. i dunno why either,
but now, i'm feeling a bit hungry, gonna dig things out and eat liao.
okay, very very random, i miss school life :(
alright, babylove booked in again today.
hmmm, and i know these coming days would be even more stressful,
and babylove said sorry to me, that he wouldn't be able to help me out,
my maid is away for a 10 day holiday, and babylove going to outfield.
cannot receive his messages everyday le.
hmmm, but i know, and i understand, he's having a tough time too.
babylove made me promised to him alot of things before he went in.
and my babylove told me, while holding my hand,
he said: 'i'm charging you now, it will be more than enough to last till friday'
isn't it sweet ?
to some people, may be silly.
but i guess it's because you all dun understand what we gone thru.
i really into babylove.
alright, work was alright.
turned out pretty fine. didn't as i expected :D
hahaha :)
but some embarassing things happen of course.
but because it's the first time i do opening mahs, so can be understood.
hehehe :)
meet babylove at orchard mrt and accompany him to pasir ris.
yesterday babylove overnight at my place.
hahaha. cause he offered his help to my family,
cause my grandpa went to send my maid too.
and i have to work so babylove offered his help.
so much appreciated my love.
alright, babylove will be away from me again,
and won't be msging me everyday also, because outfield cannot bring handphone along.
okay, i will be fine :D
Iloveyou dear!
muacckss~
Yo people...
Qiulong here, 2nd day of book out.
Spend the whole day with babyy, catch a movie in the afternoon..
Tonight sleeping at babyy's house
hmmm..
Babyy tmr working, cannot accompany me to book in..
So today i will spend 24hours with her.
Next monday having field camp, i'm sorry i cannot contact you
for the next week monday to thursday.
3weeks to go for my BMT, wahahaa..
Babyy, keep complain i never spend time with her..
Bo bian~ BMT where got time leh?
But baby is very understanding.
Hope post to unit, i got more time for baby.
Today we cried together, for wad?
I'm not sure too..
Babyy, i promise you i won't leave you anymore, ok?
And thanks for overcome your fear..
hahaa finally you not scare of my sister le.
Muacks~
Iloveyou baby!!
alright babylove is at my place now.
hmmm, cooking Udon today for my dinner, simple and nice:D
catch the movie Orphan today. nice show i should say.
babylove, you never fail to lift up my day.
i know i will be down again when you are back into your camp,
i know i will again neglect my health when you are back in your camp,
but babylove, i will be stronger and stronger to deal all the obstacles that i face alone.
babylove whispered in my ears today, that he is sorry, and he loved me.
yes i know babylove.and yes, we shed tears AGAIN!
i dunno why, it seems like we always crys together,
definitely, my tears washed his arms as usual,
babylove, i know how lousy you felt,
i know how angry you felt,
and i know you love me.
slept in babylove's arms this afternoon, in total comfort.
telling me that he is there for me, although he's gonna book in soon again,
but 7 weeks are approaching and then he will be post to unit,
and by then, i could almost see him everyday.
and i know, babylove, nothing will change in our relationship,
there's no him, her, they, to ruin us.
oh ya, junhong booked out today! hahaha.
bet julianna is over the moon.
hahaha. hmmm, thou we can't meet out this week, perhaps next week?
okay, tomorrow my maid is going back for a 10days holidays.
oh my god, got to make my own bed and own laundry. :S
hahaha. tml have to reach airport by 7am.
and i'm not going, because i got to work,
perhaps babylove would help me out. that depends whether he could wake up.
hahaha. i will be working till 3pm.
which means i can't accompany babylove tomorrow
and couldn't send him to pasir ris.
i am sorry babylove.
hope you can understand,
it's not the money that i couldn't reject, it's the words that i promised them.
lastly, i love you.
finally, i got babylove back by side :D
babylove told me that the nightmare is over now.
and ask me not to be defeated easily. be strong.
today we will be catching a movie together! hahaha :D
yesterday night wasn't a very pleasant night for me and babylove,
due to some stuffs we had an exchange of words.
babylove, not that i don't want to quit, but i have given my words to them.
alright, i have to go now, to meet my babylove.
feeling rather down today. oh shan't say it anymore.
my tears flood each time i received babylove text and brother's one too.
sighs. i will endure, tml i can see babylove le.
the power that babylove charge to me, has drained out.
emergency battery that babylove ask me to used, i have already used up.
so please, babylove, come out fast. :(
i dunno why things are happening like this now.
hope it's only my part of thinking. alright, have to turn in now.
not feeling well thou.
having flu, cough, headache, spine pain.
thanks babylove, for all the words and messages you come up with.
and you never fail to send me special message every single night,
and that's really the joy which can cover all my unhappiness in one day.
thank you, my babylove.
i'm missing you terribly:(
i gonna work later sia. so bored, so tired, so restless.
hasn't been feeling well for these past 3 days. yesterday was even worst, giddy whole day.
oh sucks man, got to work till 10 pm tonight!
tml will be friday already. but i couln't fetch babylove from pasir ris :(
cause i'm working again tml night again till 10 pm.
babylove texted me last night, and yes, babylove, there's nothing to hide about within us.
okay, i shall wait for your book out day, book out day okay :D
friday night faster come !!
going prepare myself le, have to go lionel's place to give them tuition,
then to takashimaya liao.
awaiting for babylove's afternoon call :D
hee! babylove just texted me :D
there it goes again. sighs! babylove come out quick.
even today i have to face this, i dun understand. is it really because of personality?
granny is just so stubborn, she had a fall at amk, on her way back from market.
now limps when she walks. sighs, headache.
babylove, i can't take it anymore.
and i am very tired already. very.
like what brother says, there's only so much we can do to please someone.
and sighs, i am really tired.
i always thought it that way, but it don't seems to be.
my heart and brain doesn't tally anymore. sighs, why is it like that.
i always thought that replaying what babylove has said to me,
looking at all his messages and special messages every night could help at least a bit,
but but but, i'm wrong, it doesn't help anymore.
the cure to do is only by seeing babylove, and stick to him 24/7 if possible,
but again, its not possible, for the days he is not around with me,
i'll talk to myself, write to my diary
and endure whatever is happening in the house or at work or anywhere,
and strangely, when i see babylove, i don't want to speak to him much,
all i need is his presence in front of me,
we always don't talk till we reach at least half of the journey back home.
he knows what i am saying without me even opening my mouth,
he knows what i am thinking, how i am feeling for the days he's not around.
and, i don't want him to worry for me when he got to book in again,
and so i have to control how much emotions that i let to flow to him,
definitely he's the first person to everything,
definitely he's the only one who has all the words i ever need.
and definitely, its only him, whom and where i can be so neutral.
i don't have to hide any feelings from him, and its only him i trust faithfully.
all in all, i just need to see him infront of me and i'll be fine.
loving babylove, never is enough.
now at muqing place. yeah, should be doing maths and not blogging down here.
hahaha, got to have some rest too right?
i got babylove texts in the morning as usual, 12 plus and 2pm plus.
chatted for at least half an hour i guess. :D
he never failed to call or text me whenever he is free.
this shows something ? hahaha.
and for me, i drop a few sms to him to every destination i reach.
that's one of the do's that he has set for me.
wanting me to update him, not tracking me la. hahaha.
alright update later, muqing behind me peeping again!
slept aorund 3.30am last night.
actually wanted to watch the football match de, but couldn' t find the damn channel.
awake at 11.45am and just hang up the cal with babylove.
he kept telling me that he miss me and all.
but all i could do is only tell him friday is coming,
because if i were to let my emotions flow to him, both of us will end up tearing again.
my babylove is this silly. and i am very dependent on him,
don't force me to grow okay, hahaha.
i am missing him badly.
today, muqing and brother will fill up my day.
Girlfriend, do take care the eye of yours okay!
don't later have to go under the knife then you cry,
so please on the time take your medicine and your regular eye drops okay!
i am bringing my maid to cck singapore post to remit money back to her hometown.
after which will head to muqing house, doing maths again.
and dinner with brother :D
alright, friday night will come fast right?
okay, i'm back from babylove's house. hahaha.
tengteng gave me tuition this evening till just now, which is 11.30pm plus.
we went to have sakae sushi and then back to her place.
we chatted alot alot, and in all kinds of topics. hahaha.
i think i am countering my fear. :D
babylove ask me is it because of him i got all courage to face his sister.
hahaha, babylove, i can do everything for you. just for you.
it was all because of you that i have change.
really, to accept new people into my life,
to accept other people thinking,
to accept the fact that i have do some decision for myself.
and to control all sorts of feelings till i see you.
i remember all the words you ask me to remember,
and the do's and don'ts you set for me i will follow abide.
alright babylove, i'm missing you, can you hear me?
6 more days to go.
i'll be standing at where i have been always been standing waiting for you.
this morning had an argument with grandma.
sighs, i will go crazy one day if all those nonsense were to keep happening.
maybe, it's her character and she's old, perhaps.
and to you, maybe it's nothing else, except retribution.
my silly boy, i'm waiting here for you.
babylove, i miss you. oh my god.
just 4 hours separation only. and i'm missing you again.
and this will continues till sunday.
looks like we hasn't forgotten each other's past.
both of our past hinder us. why is this so? i am not sure either.
its affecting me, my mood, not my relationship with babylove, of course.
it was all the past which leads to this problem now. but we both know, this will also pass.
i miss babylove luhs.........
we don't mind each other past, move on together, we live in the present.
and we work for our future. we don't live in the past.
we have taken a step together to walk away from our past.
well, maybe all we can blame is our mind set last time.
but we both clearly know that what we want now, and what is the goal in our life.
and babylove allows me to go on diet.
but he wants me to promise him not to go hunger strike,
okay babylove, you have my promise.
loves. i turning in le, babylove nagging in the message liao.
babylove book in day today. sighs !
we started our time at about 11.30am at Causeway point.
went to catch the move, Where Got Ghost. yups, it's a hormody like wad jack neo said.
hahaha. before that went to have macdonalds. and also Timezone arcarde.
hahaha. play the Mishi-Bashi, and then the basketball and those whacko games.
so happy after that. because was troubled with somethings since last night,
and nothing seems to help me to get over it.
until we play games at Timezone and the time where i spend with babylove.
i dunno why, somethings which are the past already but still bothers me.
thou babylove and brother kept consoling me and all, but still,
who knows and can exactly knows how this feelings feels like.
well, i'm also a girl whose heart is also fragile.
i'm also a human being who needs attention, love and concern.
sighs.
went to babylove's house after then. and we were lying on the bed and then,
babylove whispered to me and ask me to continue to be strong.
he'll never leave me no matter what happens, and ask me to support him all the way,
told me that everything will pass on and that also includes his 2 yrs NS.
babylove, i am strong just because of you. because you told me so.
babylove send this message to me,
miss you too baby! now on the boat already,
baby wait for me, strong k.
you can cry but don't feel lost.
i'm always there to guide you out.
i love you baby.
when i saw this message. i felt so melted. i felt so loved. i felt so into him.
all these are just simple messages, but it is all these which makes me going on still.
makes me to be with him.
alright, shan't say anymore.
Anthea's on her way to my house to study together, and so i have to bathe now.
update later or something bahs.
its really a torture to have babylove booking in and booking out. :(
back from the Fong's clan dinner.
alright, super full now. went to take bursary. hahaha.
this year much more than those previous years, i dunno why either.
okay. babylove stayed at my house to help look after my grandparents,
and also help my sis make sushi. and he made beautiful sushi okay!
yesss, i am jealous, because when i ask him to do, he just did a simple one.
but today ones were fantasic and beautiful i tell you, bias babylove. :(
babylove wait for me to reach home and he went home then, i love you so much.
felt so super tired when we went to the ntuc to buy those ingredients.
and i kept calling out to babylove. and i saw those eyes from babylove.
he's upset, he's worried about me. all these i know.
but i can't pretend to be strong when babylove is right infront of me,
and there's no need me to pretend, simply because, he is babylove, he is my love.
all the more, the one whom i trust, the one whose shoulders i lay in.
i felt rather weird now, i dunno why, is it normal?
babylove please tell me, i dunno either.
i'm so what you know, so many things happening.
well, not really happening, but is like new problems coming towards me again,
and babylove, when you are away again, who do i turn to?
this kind of thing, how to turn to just a Tom, Dick, or Harry. sigh.
i am actually so lost at times,
and i really wish that you will never need to go NS at all.
babylove, still, thanks for everything today,
be it not waking up also, hahaha. and i know you tried your best okay.
you're my best baby. you're my best boyfriend i ever have.
and i am not going to lose you anymore again to anyone.
okay, im back here after my first day work today at The Brownie Factory.
as expected, babylove overslept today again. but he managed to meet me at Kranji :)
alright, after that girlfriend was already at Somerset waiting for me.
then i ate the Egg muffin that babylove brought for me :D
heees.
after which walked to the staff entry together with girlfriend.
after that, she lead me the way down. and holy shit!
super confused with their route, like a big super maze.
and i don't think i can find my way alone in there!
be it whether to go down to the staf canteen, or to take the float money,
i just cant find my way there :(
okay, brought my lunch at Tori-Q, cost me $5.20
ate at the staff canteen, and i couldn't find it.
so walked back to the outlet and find pei jing(my new friend) and ask for help.
so end up she brought me in there, and i am trying hard to remember the way can.
3pm finally, and i saw babylove,
so elated. really, first day of work,
he send me there, he fetch me from work. :D
slept in the train, on babylove's shoulders,
and my head kept dropping down and finally i K.O in babylove's arms.
i said something so bad to babylove last night,
i told him to stay in camp till 2 years then come out,
because its a torture for me that i can't see him for days,
and when he's finally out, it's like only 2 days, it's really a torture to me,
and eventually this sentence hurt babylove.
and i'm sorry love.
babylove, thanks for everything today,
we have really spend every moment that we can together when you're out.
and sorry that i don't have sufficent time for you today,
i will repay tomorrow okay, but i have to rest in your arms okay.
and lastly, i want to say, i love you.
heeeeee ha!
babylove is finally out.
hahahaha. i miss him so much.
today is our hundred days being together.
went to bugis with my nursing mates, plus tracy's friend, her boyfriend and her brother.
went to have steamboat and after that i went to pasir ris to wait for babylove liao.
buay tahan my boyfriend!
1st book out forget to take house keys.
2nd book out forget to take ez link card.
hope the next following times everything will be rmb to take in and take out.
brother ask me to remind babylove. hahaha.
alright, was rather emo when i see babylove.
its like so finally can!
reach his house, he bathed and then comfort time :D
hahaha, and yes we shed tears together again.
babylove, don't doubt yourself to that you couldn't be a good boyfriend to me,
just being able to be together, makes everything perfect.
i have learn how to accept things,
i have learn to endure all the feelings till i see you.
i have become strong, be it for the sake for you,
because i know its you im doing everything,
and its you who make me changed,
i love you baby.
you are special to me baby, you are just so different from any other guy.
and, i will continue to be strong, stronger and stronger.
2 years for an entire, its worth it, yea?
i love you baby.
Anthea just left not long ago.
studied physics tonight, thou not much at least know abit.
texted teng teng ask her whether she still remember some topics.
and she actually hit me hard, that i don't left much time.
and if i really wanna pass, i must put in extra effort, because left 2months now.
left about 12 weeks now. i am also getting gitters already,
but what to do? i must start to set my piorities.
and i really hope grandpa will get better and better each passing day.
girlfriend, i know exactly how you feel how,
how sad, how angry and actually how disappointed you are now.
but rest assured okay, thou i'm not a boyfriend to you,
couldn't do the things which junhong does,
but remember that i'm your girlfriend,
someone who you can trust and share your problems,
so never try to hide your feelings again. never.
i'm glad to share problems with you okay.
anything just text me okay, although tml we wun be meeting.
alright, got to turn in now,
if not what happen last night will repeat again,
brother, girlfriend and babylove will know.
hahahaha.
now back home liao.Anthea will be coming over to study.
babylove scold me for not studying. well, i deserve it la.
this whole week hasn't touch my book yet :(
alright. girlfriend send me to bus stop and waited for the bus together.
after that she went opposite to take back 13 to her mum's place.
once her departure, i left the alone feeling again.
so terrible. msg babylove and no respond,
and on my way back, he replied. :D
but only 2 msg then off phone liao.
babylove tell me he oiling his 2nd wife, then see tml what time tml book out.
and should be evening. awww. i cant wait to see babylove.
alright, babylove sister, teng teng, agreed to coach me for maths and science.
hahaha. like i have said in the earlier post,
i have change. all because of babylove.
alright post later or something.
i miss everything of yours.
i love you.
right now at julianna's house.
hmmm, keep shooting each other today,hahaha.
keep saying i put on airs.
she also lor.hahaha.
i've been doing my part to keep you accompany girlfriend,
so girlfriend, can you just sayang me when the thunder comes again.
laughs. :D
we're disturbing each other today, and end up she blogging, and i play psp. :D
i play DJ MAX, and she play my ds, Cooking Mama.
gonna take from brother Cooking Mama 2 :)
stupid girlfriend show off her Eeyore.
keep saying abt junhong.
hahaha.
and kiss her Eeyore.
(babylove where is my tigger?)
today is brother's ORD day.
hahaha.
8am brother send to many people his ORD cheer.
and just now, he sms me he receive his pinky liao.hahaha.
tomorrow will be meeting my ite girlfriends!
yeah, after so long finally, i can get to see them.
will be celebrating tracy birthday.
after that will go to pasir ris wait for babylove.
oh yeah, sunday will be working,
and night will be having fong's clan dinner.
sians, no time for babylove le.
babylove texted me this morning as usual, telling me his programme for the day.
and asking me to take proper meals and also to enjoy myself today.
and again, he told me not to leave him,
babylove, i won't leave you alright.
you're the one who i chosen to be with for the rest of my life.
no matter how tough this journey it may be,
we will counter it together.
we have promised each other so many things.
but just one thing to keep deep down in our heart,
never leave each other again.
somehow, you are so far away but i can feel something from you far far away.
i love you.
will be waiting for you at pasir ris tomorrow okay.
ooops, looks like i'm talking to babylove,
sorry, got myself so 'in' talking to babylove.
i miss him dearly.
babylove, i want to let you know, i have changed,
and this change is due to your enlistment to NS.
wherby i learn to take care of myself,
remind myself what is my daily programmes,
learn to see things in many angles,
learn to hold back all the emotions till i see you,
learn to forgive and forget,
and lastly, learn how to endure all the miserables feelings when you're inside.
all these is what you have made me learnt.
to become a stronger me,
to become a more indepenent me.
lastly, i love you.
the 100th post today.didnt have a good sleep like how brother wished me too.slept around 3 am.called brother to have a chat before i sleep,i think it did some help.hahaha. alright, was awake by 7.50am,thanks to my sister, throwing tantrum.wth yea.had my muffin for breakfast and now blogging.waiting for anthea and her friend to come and study.after which will be looking for girlfriend, again.will be studying and also finish up the work that needs to be done for the toys.hahaha.babylove gonna book out tml :Si dunno is it a good thing or a bad thing.that's why i given this face.good thing because tml i can see him finally.and bad thing is because i still have to wait for another day!okay, and i'm working on sunday, which i dun have the whole day with babylove.maybe after work abit of time luhs, cause at night i have the fong's clan dinner.awwww, how how. waited so long for babylove to book out and 2 days will pass so fast.now only can hop monday the timing for booking in is evening,not like last monday, 9am.i miss you babylove, you hear me?i have been strong,i need your prescence to re-charge me everytime,i guess my endurance is only up to 5 days only.and just nice, today is the 5th day.the first time it was after 7 days and i see you,but that was really like no life already after the 5th day.and now, today is the 5th day,which i really miss you till i don't know how to say already.been sending messages to you, to let you feel that i'm alright,to let you know i've been strong.but, i need to re-charge sooooon.and i mean real sooooon.iloveyou babylove.and to whoever leejiahao is,get a life, dont spam. grow up okay?hahaha :D
i miss you badly, babylove, can you hear me?
went to takashimaya today, was called to go down to get staff pass.but went down, and end up only see the working schedule.what the hell, lucky girlfriend accompained me.if not like one fool travel from yew tee to orchard just to see the schedule.will be working for 3 sundays,wonder i could have sufficient time with babylove.went to girlfriend house after buying our 'toy'.hahaha,if babylove and junhong know, they'll kill us! hahaha.had chit=chat and shared many things with girlfriend.crossed-heart, hahaha.human creatures are so strange and difficult to understand.and i start to understand girlfriend better now.thru the talks in her room and pasta mania.girlfriend, im just a call away okay. things maybe difficult for the beginning, but it will come down smoothly later.and no matter what, we'll have to support each other now.i missing babylove like hell okay.miss him when he didnt text me, and i miss him more when he reply my text.reading over and over again the messages he send me,and those special messages.and only saturday he will be out. :(i miss him, i miss him .every moment of every hour, of every day, for every reason imaginable,and in every way, i need you, and i love you.And i wish you could wrap your arms around me, and embrace me forever.Went to the National Skin Centre this morning with grandparents.hmmmm, after which daddy sent me to Redhill then drive grandparents back home.stay at the boys house since 1pm till 6.30pm.had salmon porridge and dinner at their house too.hmmmm,had a short nap while they are back to have the porridge.after that i kept writing out the special messages as usual.and they continue with their homework.left there and back home.so bored without babylove around, sighs! girlfriend also start to face this problem also liao.thanks xueming for your lame videos to cheer me up. :Dand babylove you ask for what i have for you,here is the answer to your question.I give my heart, my affection, my devotion, and adoration to you.People says that nothing lasts forever, but they're wrong.Somethings are meant to be, and i know that this love i feel for you will burn in my soul for the rest of my life.I was born to be with you.You are my first love, and my real love, you are my one and only, and i the only one that i gave all of my love to you.and now, suddenly, i'm missing babylove terribly!oh my god.
my babylove finally called me at 12.22am.so late uh. for the first time.i even texted brother to ask him why so late that babylove hasn't called yet.the reason that he gave me is exactly what babylove told me.just finish live firing.and i eventually wait for his call till doze off le.but i still managed to get his call :Dbabylove had a long day yeesterday, he told me when he typing the special message his hands were trembling.pooor babylove.asking me whther i have anything to report to him ?and he glad that i have a fun time together.hahaha :Dthanks to those i met up with yesterday :Di'm missing him terribly can.oh my god. 2 more days, seems it will pass fast, but the fact without him around make my day passing soooooo super slow.
today went back amk and guess wad, the officer alrdy at my door step.she's early okay.alright, went to suki shushi again for my lunch.dine in together with brother.actually dun wanna go and dine in cus my face is tearing,super ugly. my chest skin also starting to tear liao.super pain and itchy.went to meet xueming and then to mummy's branch to meet her to go NUH together.hmmm, and now blogging after my curry chicken dinner, prepared by grandma. :Dgirlfriend was so paranoid today, she thought that the previous post i'm referring her.lol.no of course, that person will know who she is.because she is constantly looking at my post.girlfriend, no worries :Dstupid daniel tan,ask me go collect my broken skin, put in the cup and burn and drink,make my new skin generate faster. Piang.disgusting daniel!still say invent ahtan oil. lol.aaahhhhh, babylove hasn't call me yet.why why why .im worried for him. :(
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