just played some mahjhong, won 10 over dollars.

but we didn't use real money.. hahaha!

alright, went to swim in the morning,

as usual, the 3 of us, hahaha.

this time to CCK swimming complex.

and i learned how to float liao. hahaha. slowly conquering my fear.

thanks brother hong for teaching and your goggles. :D hee.

babylove hands was being clamped by me so tightly.

hahaha, bo bian la, too scare liao.

hahaha.

babylove and brother hong cooked tonight :D

yummilicious,

cream of carrot, mash potato, fish & chips, fruit & bacon salad.

will update the photo another day.

some misunderstandings happen in the day,

somehow affected brother's hong mood,

but after like awhile, everything's normal ! haa.

hmmmm, alright, gonna sleep le..

anyway, my hamster jian kang is pregnant ! ^_^

been writing out my special messges out from my phone,

due to full inbox, and have to keep deleting everytime i receive one msg.

hmmmmm, came across this special message,

which is about babylove receive some overseas posting.

this issue bothers us for 2 whole day.

where we both couldn't smile,

where we both can't make another one smile,

where we both just cry separately.

babylove was stronger than me,

telling me to share with him everything, how i feel and all,

he say because if i remain like that,

he couldn't do anything to help me too.

people who have stand by me,

supported and encourage me with their words,

i really appreciate it from brother, hong brother, muqing, yong xiang and ju.

they were the ones who text me to suggest ways to look at this matter.

no doubt i know i will be supporting babylove's decision,

but somehow i felt really lost.

and guess what,

babylove said he felt really really weird between us.

when we were together 5 yrs back then,

he always have to trvel back to KL.

and then when we broke off, he had a new relationship,

he didn't even reach the woodlands checkpoint.

and now, he's back with me again, he has to travel again.

both of us didn't know want to laugh or shed tears.

sighs!

i know bbaylove have made up his decision,

but that doesn't mean he could have his way so smoothly.

no matter what, i'm behind you my love.

alright, enough of all these,

going down to TGF to get my pay. hahaha.

not much for this month.hmmm,

awaiting for hong's brother book out later in the evening,

and maybe have lan or something,

hahaha, chilling time again ! :D

was awake at 11am, so many messages received.

replied and sleep back for awhile.

and then play computer liao.

will been studying chemistry later.

so so tired.

but tuesday was the most tired day.

cause from sunday i study and then monday mrg break awhile,

and then continue till night, and then tuesday go to BPS in the morning,

and then to the exam, and back to BPS again.

super tired day.

but Cutie Pie was with me, so not that that bad.

hahaha!

just sharing one of my special message of day 133.

babylove said this : "Even though i don't encourage quarrels,

isn't sweet, was writing out my special message as usual,

and this is labelled as one of my favourite ones :D

YO guys..!
Being invite to write and babyy blog.
Hmmm right now she trying so hard to buck up her science exam coming this monday.
She looks happy studying with WengWah.
Yup.. this few days alot conflict among frens.
But i cannot say much.. i jus listen and act blur lo=D
Bro hong looks better on his ankle..,
And also hope he pass his live range.
Facing so much stress in work... is not cannot cope.
Is always tired when facing computer to do work.
No matter how much i sleep the previous night.. but still will doze off very working hahaa.
Made my finally decision for my oversea posting..
I decided not to go but must chaokeng.
IF suay suay kena... babyy please fight this battle with me ok ?
Iloveyou baby.
Okay thanks for reading=D
Seeya!

at raiders now,

together with babylove and Cutie Pie.

hahaha!

i know i should be studying at home now for my monday paper.

but, let me recharge bahs.

today's paper okay okay also.

but i leave one whole question blank.

oooops. teng teng gonna scold me liao.

haaa. but i did tried my best.

that's the most important thing.

okay, i dunno how to tackle my science.

sighs !

headed to muqing house awhile,

miscommunication problem between us.

small problem.

okay, so me and Cutie Pie bused down to amk central,

met babylove, and then to Fairprice.

and then market for dinner, and now raiders.

hahaha.

Cutie Pie never fails to make me laugh my ass off.

oh alright, Cutie Pie at my place now.

hahaha!

i had a very good night sleep last night.

maybe i know finally i can sleep well,

thou i still have paper 2 later in the noon.

super stressed can.

and i really got no time to entertain anything else excepts my notes.

luckily i got babylove's ultimate support! heee.

yesterday when i was doing my maths, both in the day and night,

i receive 6 msg and 3 missed call,

and during the night i got 5 msg and 1 missed call.

kaos.

alright, got to finish abit more of my notes,

and then head to Kranji sec again.

fuck you. i'm tired.

just got home after staying over at babylove's place.

was doing maths till 12am plus plus.

i really appreciate all those help from people around me.

hmmmm, i have a looong way to go.

but i left not much time.

but i'll still hold on, won't give up.

babylove have been spending time with me.

babylove gave up his soccer to me,

which i ask him to go and have fun,

he rather spend it with me by staying by side,

and he play dota.

i got his full support.

like yesterday for instance,

babylove, hong brother and me,

we went for breakfast together,

and then for Halloween movie,

and they proceed to lan gaming,

and i went to babylove's place.

before that i went to look for muqing,

chit chat awhile then go sembawang le.

and so babylove came back with 20pcs nuggets,

and then he went soccer with sembawang ppl,

and he returned back by my side,

and all the way till 12am plus.

& all these, babylove willing to do it for me,

and all he ask for from me,

is the same as me,

'just stay by me' is what we want.

there's several things i am unhappy about,

oh readers, don't think its about me & babylove.

just some personal problems within myself.

well, time will shown everything to me,

and i just have to be alert.

ps: this is regards to my own personal thing, nothing to do with anyone. :D

Thanks for reading!!!

alright, the birhtday CD supposed to give babylove is all ready :D

finally, it's perfect now. hee.

hong brother will book out tomorrow afternoon,

and we'll be heading to Boulevard tomorrow.

see how things goes.

hmmmm, today had a happy day.

went to have sushi buffet with muquan at amk central.

eat till super full.

started doing maths,

got scolden badly by muqing. D:

but, i know he scold so that i can absorb better?

after which went to have dinner at UNO.

together with muquan, yong xiang, ben giam, daniel and of course babylove.

took 88 back to amk,

had super fun on the bus,

laugh like mad.

hahaha!

hmmmm, after which walking around and then head home.

babylove never failed to assure me.

babylove never failed to love me.

babylove never failed to sayang me.

and thank you babylove, for supporting me,

and just because of little acts of yours,

it pulls me up together.

and i love you. :D

had my science practical done and over with.

got very tensed up,

especially the moment i see cables on the benches.

it means that for physics it's electricity.

lucky muqing got tell me some tips,

but the whole circuit is set up for us :D

i wanna thanks babylove, teng teng, ming hong, ju, muqing and eugene.

they said things to calm my nerves.

like teng teng said, at least i try to answer,

still got hope to score abit of points.

if i leave it blank = zero.

well, i donated 4 marks away.

babylove more funny, ask me go and have fun and try my best.

hahaha.

went for pasta mania for lunch cum dinner.

together with my new friend, Siok Yit.

hahaha. lmao.

and she has this ding ding thingy.

hahaha.

hmmmm, after that went to sembawang and have maths.

ooooh! i just saw babylove's post.

hmmmm, yup, my mood is good today,

which i dunno why also.

and about the thing he was saying abt fairness,

sigh, i'm speechless.

and for the overseas training, i'll respect his decision.

Baby today just finish her science practical exam..

And she got so excitied and chat with my sister so much during dinner.

UNFORTUNATELY...,

i became invisble haha =D

Had laska for dinner, came back to my house... babylove was studying so hard..

And i'm on killing spree hehe=D DOTA.

Baby's mood today damn good but went off mood when going home.

I can understand why, and i think is really unfair.

Maybe is over concern or is totally unfair.

Hmmm.... i had made my decision and i shall not go overseas training,

Only way.. Chao keng lorr~

Bo bian, i think 1year there will be hell.

Though paid for extra allowance, but money couldn'nt buy my time for

love ones.

Baby keep asking me to go... but do u really want me to go?

I cant bear it.

Wad if anything happens to gong gong?

Wad if anything happens to you?

I only can suck thumb u know?

Sigh.

Shall not talk about this le=D

I only knows i love baby alot.

This patch up might stun alot of people~

Even me could not imagine.

I will cherish this relationship like never before.

Because i know she's the right girl for me.

THANKS for reading. Time to sleep.

oh god, i'm going for my science practical in just 3hours time.

oh this feeling sucks.

friends always tell me why,

i have those courage to retake o levels every year.

hmmm, all because i want to have a better cert?

but always fail.

babylove, muqing, julianna, teng teng, eelynn,

mr edmund, mr cris, mummy and uncle asked me to jiayou!

scare later hand shake only.

had a super weird nightmare.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BROTHER HONG ! :D

heeee.back home from babylove's place.

went to muqing place and then to Queensway walk walk.

brought 2 tops.

hahaha.

babylove brought it for me :) heeee.

alright, tomorrow will be having my science practical. oh oh oh.

hmmmmm,

i was so touched by babylove's words,

he said: 'you just have to stay healthy, in order for me to continue to dote on you'

isn't it sweet.

it melts me completely.

this boyfriend of mine supported me for my O levels.

thanks babylove for all the words.

i'm turning in soon now.

goooooodnights :D

this is babylove with his pet.

outside The Cathay

alright, on the day of babylove's birthday,

we went for a breakfast at the Macdonalds.

i spend the night over at his house, and he was really happy.

and he cthought he would received a surprise or something.

sorry for not able to give you the surprise that you wanted.

the perfect gift wasn't perfect yet.

because of the movie clip.

.... i know.

hahaha. i try to save in others prog formats but can't be done.

well, teng teng will help me out later.

alright, heading to muqing house for science today,

as tml will be science practical.

waaaaa,dunno can make it anot.

my secondary school teacher told me that they predict that,

chemistry is Redox, and physics is Electricity.

oh my god.

alright, for another 7 mins babylove will turn 19years old offically.

hmmmm, thou my mission failed, but i will try to make another surpise out of it.

plus my perfect gift for babylove still got one last step.

i really really hope babylove would love his perfect birthday gift :D

and i know he will, definitely.

oh right, right now at amk raiders again.

L4D with julianna, muqing, eugene.

babylove was plaing dota.

hmmmm, some bad news happened.

but trust me girlfriend, you know what it takes to maintain a r/s.

and right now, you have to get back onto your feet,

stand strong,move on,live happily.

went to woodlands temple this afternoon,

and brother hong came to my place.

hahaha. joke la he, went to amk house.

okay, reached, we chatted awhile and then enjoy babylove's cooking.

superrrr yummilicious. :D :D :D

hong brother also agreed :)

and then he went back to tpy.

while babylove and i went to look for his dad,

as we supposed to have dinner altogether.

had a very filling dinner,

and then to raiders to find julianna and eugene.

alright, shall end here for today's post.

might be going Kbox tml.

see how it goes.

but it will be with julianna and others.

lastly,

this is just a random post, because i've nothing to do.

alright i guess, time really flies.

from i went to ITE after my Os in yr 2007,

and then i have friends around me,

supported each other in the course,

give the extra to each other just by cracking some cold lame jokes.

and then comes the exam day, we chiong together to get the best grade,

and then came 1st ever attachment,

grandpa would prepare breakfast for me

and also pack food for me to bring to hospital if i'm on afternoon shift,

and would also sms me telling me to take care and to be home early.

and then came second term of semester in school.

where everything seems to be declining,

my relationship, my grandpa health,

and comes the second attachment, and that's when i came a down in my life.

having my grandfather hospitalised,

and i only think that i have the ability to take care of him,

and thus i insists to stay there 24/7 without leaving a step away.

my health didn't compromise,

and that's when everything else starts.

having no friends, having no boyfriend besides me.

and when i say i want to quit schooling, no one says a second word,

and so now, i am school-less.

and then came the wrong decision, and i'm not saying what,

and only babylove know this, no one else.

and, i'm shocked, i'm afraid and i'm glad that babylove accepted with it.

babylove analysed it with me,

he knows why i did that particular mistake.

he knows why i did not respond when i know its a wrong.

he knows it all without me saying.

he's the one who could read my mind, who could put me at ease.

and every now and then, when i spend my night over at amk,

i would actually recalled how grandpa tend to fall when opening the door,

and how he tend to fall in the toliet.

and till the night that he kneel on the floor and couldn't get up.

my tears roll.

i've been clinging onto the past.

those images just couldn't get off my mind, and i feel really sad.

those images of grandpa couldn't get up,

those images of me sitting in the ambulance,

those images which i see him struggle.

i can say, my grandpa is a very strong and brave person.

just that now he's old, body function decline,

and that's life.

i know all these. and i know if i were to collapse,

mummy and grandma will collaspe too.

it's very hard on me, i have to put a brave front.

just like when i was not okay in my health,

and grandpa asked, i smiled and said okay.

mummy saw, and she teared when she saw that forced smile on my face.

pardon me for posting such a loooong and emo post.

at amk lan shop now.

after sentosa with all my friends.

the weather is steaming hot!

and its fun seeing all those friends of mine playing so happily.

they played Frisbee as usual, against strangers,

and then soccer with another bunch of strangers,

and lastly, volleyball with also another group of strangers.

hahaha :D

the sky is so blue such that i could manage to capture quite a number of super nice photos!

yeah, and that means i have taken a closer step to the perfect birthday present. :D

i ddon't understand one thing,

i don't know what you're trying to do to me,

i don't know why are you like a rollercoaster,

and now, i have actually stop myself to enter the rollercoaster,

but why are you giving me free tickets to it,

i didn't ask for this ticket,

who are you?

who are you, simply just who are you,

what motive are you hiding,

each has one limits,

i know this might be offending to another person, but i can only say i'm sorry.

it's my limits already.

turning in soon now,

will be preparing the few last steps already for babylove's perfect birthday present.

it's my first time preparing someone's birthday present.

hmmmm, for his, i really put in alot alot effort.

in between met up with obstacles, learn from it, and won't have it in future anymore!

hahaha,

alright, got to sleep already,

if not Eelynn going to nag at me again, hee.

Goodnights!

i'm so so happy today!

maybe due to the thing that i've been waiting for. :D:D:D

something to make the perfect birthday present!
heee.

had maths tys done abit together with muqing at amk home,

and then down to Khatib with him to give tuition to his students,

so cute can his students! hahaha :)

oh well, suppose to go play pool with muqing and ben giam,

but look at the time, i guess i should head to babylove's place.

placed down my bag and then check out the male hamster.

so heartache to see him limping away,

and it's still swollen, awwww.

after that went to sleep for 50mins.

woke up and then went to play bball and then dinner at 9 pm.

had a very good day with my babylove,

the something really makes my day!

thanks to friends who thinks that the something is nice too!

i couldn't believe i'm cheated by thrice, by someone whom i thought i could trust.

yeah, at this wee hour, i should be sleeping now.

but, just learn something from Eelynn.

great :D its like she will try to work things out for me.

thanks Eelynn!

okay, shall continue what i'm doing tomorrow,

eyes already closing.

if babylove comes to know that at this hour i still didn't sleep,

i will have his earful scolding! hahaha.

okay, goodnights.

:D :D :D

YESH!

Our new blog is nice..

ILOVEIT~

Hmmm just had a movie with baby, pretty nice show.

But towards the end, both of us is endure-ing our pee haahaa.... i couldn't walk propely after the show.

And baby naughty keep laughing at me.

Well, is a memorable experience.

Our dear hamster ( fai cai ) injure his left back leg... but dunno why i felt so heart pain.

Felt so pain because, i'm like a lousy owner. Fail to provide them the best.

But according to Doctor wengwah, they will heal by itself, wad a relief answer to hear.

Last night cut my hair at baby's house..

It was painfully, the blade they used was like not sharp.. instead cutting hair i should

say

Its tearing my hair =D

But i appreciate alot. Thanks=)

Since so long never do hair cut at home le:)

Jus now had some chats about the past at amk...

We both felt the same...

Which i'm not going to annonuce

Waahaa =P

Okay tmr got P.T. got to sleep early.

Baby thanks for trusting me.

I won't misuse it.

LOVEYOU FOREVER!

Thanks for reading.

just back home.

catch the Tsunami korean show.

SUPERB . yes, me and babylove teared.

hmmmmm, couldn't if that movie is real, what will happen.

during last half an hour of the movie,

both me & babylove needs the toilet urgently, and i mean, urgently.

and yet, we don't want to miss any part of the movie,

and so, when we exit the thearate, we were like walking very fast to the toilet.

hahaha! and i can't stop laughing at babylove, hahaha.

mine male hamster had a broken leg last night,

so poor thing can, very heartache,

but came to know that it will heal by itself , but it takes weeks.

sigh, who is the culprit?

i hope its not that weird uncle in the house! D:

went to brought something to make babylove's present a perfect gift.

and then down to muqing place.

he did alot of talking to me,

and i listened to me.

as you know, there's only 2 brothers that i would speak to and listen to them.

of course not forgetting some other important brothers,

but you know, certain things changed under certain circumstances.

2 brothers definitely would be Ming Hong and Muqing :)

got Eelynn to help me with this blogskin.

she help me to get my ideal blog.

thanks many many.

she's someone great, not because she help me then i say this,

it's the way she talk, she behaves, or rather, she's kind. :)

will be catching the Tsunami show this evening,

i'll be waiting for babylove at muqing house.

will be doing some revision there,

22oct science practical, oh my god.

update later.

i'm such a bad girlfriend!

haven't been shouting at my babylove.

all because he's always playing dota,

the moment he stepped into my room until he finished his dinner!

okay i know, i know~

but must be fair mahs..

alright, sorry babylove okay :D

have the t-shirt design out,

thanks terrence,

but at first babylove wasn't happy with the pictures.

but now, he start to love it already :D

this shirt will be better the best. :D :D :D

this is a special gift from me to babylove,

a signifiant of love of ours, a token of love from me.

saturday will be sentosa again~~

hahaha.

going to sentosa is like a very normal thing now.

hahaha.

alright, my babylove is bringing me out for a stroll now,

heee, he seldom ask me out for a stroll :)

YO READERS!

Things for me and babyy had been worsen this few days.

Maybe is because of me not contributing to the relationship,

Maybe is because i neglect her.

But we have been meeting each other daily,

But how come we got worse feelings than i'm at BMT??

Issit because we meet each other daily and we got bored?

I never get bored with babyy, i promise.

I always find things to do together.. but recently i feel babyy

Feeling very down, upset.. dun smile.

WAD really happen to her? i dunno.

We still meet each other as like daily routine, but the smile in our face is getting lesser.

Wad i really wish now is returning my baby's smile.

I always try to talk to her... but conversation always become quarrels.

Issit because of me?

I can't do anything.. i really felt i did my best.

She attitude i never say anything.. i kept quiet,

Maybe she hate me playing game ba.

If she would enjoy playing game with me.. i guess life for us we be much better.

Nvm.. i just have to take note.

Jus had a huge quarrel.

I cant type anymore.

Please give me feedback.

Thanks for reading!

we were having much much fun altogether :D

the cakeee-seng !

the guys :D

group photo :D

this is most ultimate chalet i ever had :D

all because its different from the other times,

all becasue it's babylove's celebration, not forgetting hong's.

all because of you, my dear.

i love my girlfriend too :)

hmmm, so bored down here.
now they are playing cards and forfeit is to drink up the vodka peach.
hahaha. i never play, because i'm lousy in this.
hahaha.
alright, now awaiting for some more people to come and join in the fun. hahaha.
alright, new game liao, so i'm in!
hahaha.

dslept only 3 and 1/2 hours.