babylove is besides me now.
just had another round of dota.
hahaha.
heading down to mummy's branch later to pass her somethings.
then to give the boys tuition.
8more days to ns..
sigh. and no rply still from the navy.
hmmmm..........
went to tracy's blog.
read abt her post abt her nursing experiences in the ward.
well,i have also encounter 2 cases very shocking.
1 case was his spo2 level is only 22,
normal human being supposed to be 100%.
below 88% is also dangerous,have to handle it properly liao.
and my patient at that time was critical and he couldn't respond.
the wife was crying away, and the old patient of mine could only do is to blink his eyes.
sigh,life is so unpredictable.
suddenly miss my nursing life again.
i promised myself not to look back what i have put down months ago.
and like what babylove said to me,
i put it down because i knew no one can do the things i can do and,
things that i wanted to do for grandpa.
during that time,it was really a downturn in my life.
and there was no one i could turn to.
not my family,because they themselves are facing this problem and they hide their feelings too.
not my friends,because they have their own problems.
not my ex boyfriend,because he couldn't understand the situation.
babylove analyse the problem with me the other day.
telling me how my ex boyfriend has felt and all.
and what babylove would do if at that time we were together.
and i know, and i begin to understand.
i guess, my grandpa hospitalisation is really a big blow to me.
and he's very dear to me.
thou, we don't show people that we're close, but deep inside, we all knows.
he is someone who is so dear to methat i could give up my studies,
and just stay by him 24/7.
when he's asleeps, i sleeps,
when he's awakes, i am awake,
when he's in pain, i would distract his attention and i really felt heartpain.
saw some photos on my computer.
and he was still well,
just because of his first admission to hospital,sleeping on bed for 9 days,
he couldn't stand up from then.
was it a correct thing to call the ambulance on that day??
i really wonder.
if all that didnt happens,he wouldn't be now lying on the bed,
couldn't get up as and when he wants.
i really want to see him standing up on his own feet,for this last time.
