there it goes again. sighs! babylove come out quick.
even today i have to face this, i dun understand. is it really because of personality?
granny is just so stubborn, she had a fall at amk, on her way back from market.
now limps when she walks. sighs, headache.
babylove, i can't take it anymore.
and i am very tired already. very.
like what brother says, there's only so much we can do to please someone.
and sighs, i am really tired.
i always thought it that way, but it don't seems to be.
my heart and brain doesn't tally anymore. sighs, why is it like that.
i always thought that replaying what babylove has said to me,
looking at all his messages and special messages every night could help at least a bit,
but but but, i'm wrong, it doesn't help anymore.
the cure to do is only by seeing babylove, and stick to him 24/7 if possible,
but again, its not possible, for the days he is not around with me,
i'll talk to myself, write to my diary
and endure whatever is happening in the house or at work or anywhere,
and strangely, when i see babylove, i don't want to speak to him much,
all i need is his presence in front of me,
we always don't talk till we reach at least half of the journey back home.
he knows what i am saying without me even opening my mouth,
he knows what i am thinking, how i am feeling for the days he's not around.
and, i don't want him to worry for me when he got to book in again,
and so i have to control how much emotions that i let to flow to him,
definitely he's the first person to everything,
definitely he's the only one who has all the words i ever need.
and definitely, its only him, whom and where i can be so neutral.
i don't have to hide any feelings from him, and its only him i trust faithfully.
all in all, i just need to see him infront of me and i'll be fine.
loving babylove, never is enough.
